How much?
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Sep 14, 2022
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How much do we get to fulfill our ambitious desitre ? For some people in this world, the word of 'enough' never come into their mind to answer this question, me neither.
Like I said before, the anxiety comes from the big gap between something you want and something you can get. If you can't narrow the gap, or equal the both sides, the anxiety won't be erased by your heart.
For most of the IT workers, the San francisco bay area (aka the silicon vally) is definetly the dreamisland. The people who work there can get good paid, and less stress, don't have to work late, etc. But, recently I ran into an article, and hit me a lot. A bounch of thoughts crossing in my mind.
This article describes a tedious circle of middle class in bay area, and the author sufferd a lot from it. At the end of the passage, he (I guess?) pulled out several questions for him, or for everybody who have read this to rethink the meaning of yourself.
- If I'm a average guy, my mom would still love me ? my family would still be proud of me ?
- If I'm a outstanding person, could I get a more fulfilled life?
- If I give up all of the things except me, what actually can define me, and make me out of the range?
- What is life? What is love?
We, the ordinary people, always want to fight for how to level up our "social status" during our entire life. But when we reach to the upper layer, you would find out this is not enough. Because you can't exactly define yourself without all of the stuff around you.
If you don't enforce you to feel satified, maybe you will never be satified.
Me, for instance, currently put all of my effort to look for a job in the autumn hiring period. My goal is to get a PM job in the giant tech company, and for now I think when I step my foot inside of the company, I definetly would feel content about my self.
But the truth does not gona act like this, when you get in the game, some people who don't get the game ticket will automatically disappear from your eyesight. And you will pay much more attention on the player who could potentially threat you at any time. Then you start involuting yourself, involuting your potential enemy. And you come up with another goal, and then you prepare yourself to fight in the next round of the game, never stop.
What a disappointing life if I constanly play this endless stupid game when I walk into the edge of my life !
I've watched a youtube video that showed what life would a US welder like to live. It's simple, but fansinating. I havn't figued out what life would I want to live because I still carry some mindful barriers.
I think the answer will come out if I keep a freshy mindset and be kind to yourself. All I want is to live a colorful life with people I care.
That's it, take care.